Angels and Demons.

Yesterday, as i walked myself to class, a bus passed me by with an advert board on it. This time the advertisement is about a new movie titled, ‘Angels and Demons’. At one side of the advert borad features tom hanks with caption written Robert Langdon. I thought this must be another screenplay adaptation of Dan Brown’s masterpiece. I never read the novel but the way they present the advertisement attracted me a lot. So when i got back from class, i decided to watch the movie’s trailer on you tube.

The beginning of the trailer is quite mysterious so i think this could be a great movie. But something appeared in the trailer that caught me the most. The word ‘Illuminati’. I am not sure if everyone knows what Illuminati is all about. The first time i heard of it was around August last year during a camping in Perak. There was a presentation of a book titled ‘Pawns in The Game’ written by William Guy Carr. I was really tired that night so i miss about half of the presentation. However i managed to catch some important information yet quite interesting. Well, Illuminati is an organization spearheaded by the Devils (Iblis). At first, i was quite shocked to know that there is such a devil’s organization. But yeah, it is true. This organization has their own temple which is called ’synagogue’. Wow just now they mentioned a Devil organization and now, a temple? Pretty amazing.

So how this organization works and what is the impact to the world? This organization’s sole objective is to damage the peace and harmony of the world. Their modus operandi is very subversive and secret. They control the people that have a major influence to the world such as the kings and International Monetary Fund (IMF) organization. Through these people and this organization, they create the havoc and provoke for wars to happen. They build a civilization and once they think it is time to establish a new world order, they destroy the civilization and build a new one. The sign when the civilization is about to be destroyed is when the palace is no longer a noble and sacred place. If u ever watch Batman Begins and you will notice the similarity between this organization (Illuminati) and the League of Shadow. So what happen in world war 1 and world war 2 is actually caused by Illuminati. and the writer of the book even predict the next big thing to happen will revolve around the Palestine-Israel conflict. It will require a month to explain everything about Illuminati. But try to have a look at ‘Pawns in The Game’ book and maybe you will find a better explanation. I am writing this based on what i could remember from the presentation on the basis of sharing information.

So after the exam finished, I am planning to watch the movie because I personally think  it would be a great movie. But first things first, exams!

p/s: this is the link for trailer i mentioned before,http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASVeN-58HKk

Of Bumiputras and Quota Reduction.

Last two days, Dato Seri Najib Tun Razak made a shock announcement. After more than two decades the bumiputras enjoyed the 30% quota of rule in equity, the quota had been dropped off. Mixed reaction could be seen from Malaysian. For non-bumiputras, this would be like a ‘reform’ to the economic system of Malaysia however, for some bumiputras this is not a good thing to be happy about. Many theories were also drawn on why the prime minister made this such bold move. Some say it was to improvise the state of Malaysian economy comes the credit crunch and some say this is intended to win back the Chinese voters who turn their back on Barisan Nasional coalition during the last general election.

Let’s put all these theories and reactions aside first. Now I like to draw our attention on one thing especially for bumiputras (including myself). Are we fail to stand on par with the non-bumiputras in economy?

I’ve done some research about this 30% of bumiputras’ rule of equity thing. This motion was initiated from ‘Dasar Ekonomi Baru’ in 1970 with one of the objectives was to establish 30% of equity rule for bumiputras, 40% for non-bumiputras and 30% for foreign investors. When we outline our objective 5 key elements are important which are Spesific, Measurable, Agreed, Realistic and Time spesific and these 5 element can be shorten by an acronym S.M.A.R.T. The time frame set to achieve the DEB objectives was 20 years which mean at 1990s, the bumiputras rule of equity should be 30%. However, this was unsuccessful. The greatest percentage of bumiputras rule of equity was recorded at 13%, not even half from the objectives set. Thus it is fair to say that the program had failed in enhancing the competency of bumiputra in economy. The government then replaced DEB with Dasar Penswastaan Negara and during the presentation of national budget (I can’t remember which year) Dato Najib’s predecessor, Tun Abdullah Ahmad Badawi gave a new breath to DEB through the launching of Ninth Malaysia Plan (RMK-9).

My teacher used to told me, if you try something but you fail, there is something wrong with your plan and you should change it. So when Dato’ Seri Najib announced the reduction of the quota for bumiputras equity rule, actually I do not think it is a bad thing at all for the bumiputras. I mean, if you plan is fail, why should waste more money and time into it?? simple logic innit?? The problem with the bumiputras actually is the mental block. How long do we want to be helped by the governement policy?? Everything had been given to us be it in education, subsidy etc. and I do not think we ever experience how difficult is to get something like the non-bumis experienced. And that explains why the non-bumis perform very well in economy because when u get through something that is very difficult, u learnt a lot from it and somehow you will appreciate what you got and try as hardest as you can to protect it.

Plus, this announcement was made just two days ago but hte bumiputras are beginning to feel that this will ruin their economy activity and feel like they have lost something that is very, very big. Okay I might sound a bit harsh because I do not know how difficult it is to compete with non-bumis but lets look this situation like this; if you start something with this mindset, you can’t go as high as you wished. I think there is a malay quote which goes like this, “pantang beralah sebelum melawan”. Somehow i fnd this quote was ironic with some bumiputras’ attitude in dealing with this matter.

I admit I am not a big fan of Dato Seri Najib but lets face the reality; this quota reduction could be a stepping stone in creating a competitive and hardworking bumiputra. 2020 is getting nearer and my uncle used to told me that ho do not see Vision 2020 would be successful because the Chinese hold a major proportion of Malaysia economy and right now, China is on their way to become one of the big player in world economy and suffice to say, this would attract the chinese in our country to return to their home country. This could hurt our economy very bad and at the same time, Vision 2020 looks very difficult to be achieved. So it is up to the bumiputras to make this vision a success as how it should be. Somehow, there is a bless in disguise in this reduction. Let’s spare a thought.

Viva la Espana

Cuti Easter berjalan dengan baik bagiku. Trip ke Spain berjaya diharungi dengan selamat. Sampai juga hajatku untuk menjejakkan kaki ke bumi yg pernah satu masa dahulu menjadi pusat pentadbiran khalifah zaman Abbasiyyah. Selama 7 hari, aku bersama 6 rakan yg lain menjejakkan kaki di bumi Malaga, Granada, Cordoba dan Madrid. Terima kasih kpd rakan2 atas kerjasama kalian. Sangat senang hati dpt berjalan dengan kalian semua. Entry kali ini aku sengaja menggunakan bahasa melayu sebagai perantara. Bukan kerana isu PPMSI tapi dengan harapan entry ini dapat mendatangkan semangat kepada kita.

Percutian di Spain kali ini membolehkan kami menyaksikan perayaan Semana Santa iaitu satu perayaan meraikan minggu terakhir Jesus sebelum dia disalib. Selama seminggu rakyat Sepanyol keluar memenuhi jalan2 di sepanyol menyaksikan upacara kegamaan Kristian. Tidak dinafikan Sepanyol adalah sebuah negara yg masyarakatnya sangat kuat berpegang dgn agama Kristian. Amat susah utk mencari makanan Halal. Namun di sebalik bumi yg dipenuhi oleh masyarakat yg berpegang dgn amalan Kristian, bumi ini pernah menyaksikan satu era gemilang yg dipelopori oleh kerajan Bani Abbasiyah selama lebih daipada satu abad. Tamadun inilah yg pernah memberi harapan kepada dunia di saat dunia Eropah sedang mengalami zaman gelap nya. Di kala institusi gereja runtuh dengan penjualan sijil Indulgences, tamadun Islam ketika itu berjaya melahirkan ramai ilmuwan2 di berbagai2 bidang sehingga mengangkat tamadun Islam ketika itu kepada satu tahap yg sgt tinggi nilainya di kalangan masyarakat dunia. Aku sempat berkunjung ke al-Hambra iaitu sebuah istana yg dibina oleh pemerintah ketika itu untuk menggambarkan keadaan syurga. Aku yakin sesiapa yg pergi ke al-Hambra pasti akan tertawan matanya melihat ukiran2 halus di dinding istana yg membawa maksud ‘Tiada penakluk selain Allah’.

Kemudian di Cordoba pula, aku dan rakan2 sempat berkunjung ke Medina az-Zahra dan Mezquita-cathedral. Medina az-Zahra adalah bekas tapak pemerintahan khalifah Abd al-Rahman(3) dan Mezquita Cathedral adalah sebuah gereja yg bertukar menjadi masjid di zaman pemerintahan Islam dan kemudian bertukar kembali menjadi gereja selepas kejatuhan kerajaan Islam di tanah Andalus. Aku sedar bahawa aku bukanlah seorang yg layak utk menasihati org lain kerana aku pernah mempunyai sejarah hidup yg gelap. Tapi sebagai seorang Muslim, apa yg aku lihat dari trip ke Sepanyol sebenarnya adalah satu sindiran dan cabaran kpd kita mengenai nasib umat ini. Bagaimana sebuah umat yg sangat gemilang pada suatu masa dahulu berubah kepada sebuah umat yg kini diperlekehkan oleh musuh2 nya. Pasti kamu semua akan turut bersedih jika melihat tapak masjid yg telah diruntuhkan di Medina az-Zahra dan juga sebuah mural painting di dalam Catedral Granada yg menujukkan seorg askar Kristian yg sedang menunggang kuda sambil kudanya memijak leher org Islam. Aku yakin dua perkara ini adalah sgt sensitif utk semua umat Islam. Secara ringkasnya, tamadun Abbasiyyah jatuh kerana umat Islam ketika itu asyik dgn ilmu mereka sehingga perkara2 furu’ menjadi bahan perbincangan. Perkara furu’ adalah perkara2 remeh temeh yg tidak perlu diperbahaskan contohnya jika seseorang itu dilahirkan dgn 1000 kepala bagaimanakah cara utk nya berwuduk. Maka ketika itu tarbiah di dlm diri umat Islam terabai dan daripada menjadi sebuah umat yg gagah perkasa kepada sebuah umat yg sgt lemah. Maka dtg Genghis Khan bersama tentera tartar nya membelah bumi Andalus dan jatuhlah kerajaan Islam Abbasiyyah. Sehingga ada dlm satu riwayat menceritakan seorang perempuan tartar datang kepada sekumpulan muslimin utk membunuh mereka. Tetapi dia tertinggal pedangnya lalu berpesan kepada kumpulan muslimin itu utk tunggu di tempat itu kerana dia ingin pergi mencari pedang. Anehnya muslimin tersebut menurut kata perempuan itu maka terbunuhlah mereka sekembalinya perempuan tartar tersebut.

Sekarang, kita lihat pula pd keadaan umat islam pd masa kini dan cuba bandingkan dgn keadaan umat Islam di zaman Abbasiyyah. Aku pernah terdengar sebuah hadith yg mana Rasulullah S.A.W mengkhabarkan akan sampai suatu masa di mana umat Islam akan dikerumuni oleh org ramai seakan2 manusia mengelilingi talam utk makan. sahabat bertanya adakah kerana kami sedikit tetapi Rasulullah berkata tidak bahkan bilangan kamu sangat ramai umpama buih di waktu banjir tetpai Allah mencabut rasa gerun drpd hati musuh2 mu dan mencampakkan penyakit wahan ke dlm hatimu. Wahan adalah penyakit cintakan dunia dan bencikan mati. realitinya, keadaan umat islam hari ini sedang menghampiri hadith tersebut. Lihat saja kpd keadaan umat di Palestina dan tempat-tempat lain pasti kamu semua akan bersetuju dgn hadith ini. Mengapa, tamadun Islam yg sgt gah suatu ketika dahulu kini menjadi umat yg tersiksa di tanah air tersendiri. seperti kerajaan Abbasiyyah yg menumpukan usaha mereka kpd perkara2 keduniaan. Benar, ilmu itu penting dlm Islam tapi masalahnya mereka membahaskan perkara-perkara kecil yg tidak perlu dibahaskan. Sama seperti dgn dunia hari ini di mana kita lebih menumpukan kpd perkara2 dunia. Aku turut tidak terkecuali dr kelompok ini.

Sesungguhnya lipatan sejarah itu sentiasa berulang-ulang tapi yg berbeza hanyalah pelaku nya. Dan pepatah Inggeris ada menyebut , ” those who forgot the history are condemn to repeat it”. Sejarah membuktikan Islam pernah berjaya suatu masa dahulu dan kita arif mengapakah mereka sangat berjaya pd suatu masa dahulu dan mengapakah Islam jatuh di tangan musuh. Jika dahulu selepas kerajaan Abbasiyyah jatuh, umat Islam bangkit dgn kerajaan Turki Uthmaniyyah yg mana merupakan kerajaan Islam paling berjaya dlm sejarah dunia, tidak mustahil utk kita mengulangi kejayaan itu. Maksudnya di sini, ada rahmat di sebalik sesuatu perkara cuma terpulang atas kita sama ada ingin turut melangkah bersama atau hanya menjadi penonton semata-mata.

al-Hambra garden

Hopes and Belief

i just came across this video and find it interesting.

I still believe we are going to finish the season strong. I just need to have a little faith.

Reality Check

yesterday, me and my friends from the MICET program had a meeting with our tutor, Dr Robert Edyvean. He is a very good guy always concern with our develpment from the first day we arrive in Sheffield. He is not happy with our results in the recent exam as he expects more from us. We had a long chat about the problems that we think might limit our capabilities and any opinion on how we should improve our performances.

from his face expression and gesture, i don’t think he is satisfied with the discussion. I personally think he expects us to argue with him and talk, talk and talk. but then again, everyone seems quiet and if we do talk, i don’t think he is interested in our arguments because it is just a plain and typical argument. Before I come to Sheffield, i used to listen to a quote like this “Malaysian students have no problem in examinations but when it comes to courseworks or assignments involving group discussin, they always have problem at this thing”. suddenly i was given a reality check and i think the quote shoots me straight to my face. there are some factors about this problem but particularly, it is always had been a language issue. the fact that i chosed to stay with my malaysian friends may be the main reason why i still have this language problems. but then again other issue surfaced such as the sense of belonging. yeah, staying with malaysians made u feel just at home thus the easier for u to adapt to the new environment. even in classes, we always sit with among each other. you cam point this as another factor but i did try to sit besides a local but again, i was clueless and all i did manage to talk about is soccer, soccer and soccer which is something typical and usual.

yes this two issues contradict each other and each point has their own strengths and weaknesses. however, maybe i have forgotten one thing in judging this matter. normally, when u put yourself in a comfortable zone, you will always feel content and this limits your eagerness to learn something new. so i guess i am putting myself into that zone and feel like everything is enough for me but actually no. so far everything works according to how i want them to be. the courses, the exams everything is right in their place Alhamdulillah but the language issue, nothing much has chang i guess. My parents expect me to have a better english possession when i finish my degree and so are my uncles and aunties. seriously, they are expecting a big thing from me and fingercross, may Allah give me the time and space to accomplish that. Until then, I can declare ‘Mission Accomplished’ (cam dlm game red alert plak lol)

The no 9 comeback.

After one year of waiting and patient, finally last night Eduardo da Silva made his long awaited return to the pitch. And he marked his comeback with a bang. Scored two goals and almost grabbing a hatrick. i was happy last night of course. Every Gooners were happy last night. Not just because Eduardo comeback but the team played last night. They moved around the ball all over the pitch very well and fluently, reminiscing the glory days at Highbury.Yeah, it’s just Cardiff City but they are the FA Cup finalist last season and currently bidding for a pomotion to the Premier League.

Reflecting on the current season, yeah it is not a good one as we are struggling to stay in the top four place in the premier league plus some dispute among the squad members off the pitch. But being an Arsenal fan you always have a privilege to be proud of something in every season although you don’t win any silverware. I am not sure if the other teams have this too. last year, we beat AC Milan in their own backyard, San Siro and the season before, we did a double over Man Utd. But yeah, the trophies is what i’ve been craving for. it’s 4 seasons without a trophy but we have to bear in mind that, it took 4 seasons for Alex Ferguson to guide man utd back to win the premier league. So there goes the say, ‘in Arsene, we trust’. So i hope this season, we could claim a trophy at least. Any trophy will do.

for eduardo, i’m happy for u lad. i’m pretty sure that you will make it in the premier league. Before the horrible injury, you are already there, getting the grip on the fast-pace and physical demand of modern english games. The statistics proved that with some wonderful goals. wenger said he’s his ‘fox in a box’ and yeah i think the gaffer is damn right about it. The season is starting to get tougher and tougher at this stage. I still believe in some miracles from the Gunners like they have given me before. I miss the glory days when the henry-pires-vieira-ljungberg quartet running riot and tore the opponents apart. but those guys are no longer gunners. now we have nasri, arshavin, fabregas and RVP and yes, these guys can bring back the glory back to emirates. Like i said, ‘in Arsene, we trust’.

Swing Vote

Last Friday night i watched a movie titled ‘Swing Vote’ which was starred by Kevin Costner(he’s a popular actor right? the name sounds yes). it’s an OK film not too bad and not too good but above all there are some messages that are worth to think of. well it’s a story about US presidential election where 2 candidates are locked head to head on the same vote. however there was a vote that was technically error. so this one vote which entitled to Costner will decided the fate of Uncle Sam’s country. it’s a massive vote. so the two presidential candidates did everything they could to persuade the guy to vote for them. so along the process the viewers would notice how power overruled the principle of their leadership and commands.

i think this movie is a good reflection on the current politics scenario in our country, particularly Perak. well, i am not going to championing any side as i believe both sides have their own goods and flaws. but what irritated me the most is the vulnerability of our politicians’ principles when power took place. one side, at one particular time criticised the crossover party(dlm bahasa melayunya lompat parti lah) and saying that it is against the democracy and violates the believe that people had put in you but at one particular time, accepted this thing like you never disagree with it. and the other side promoted this crossover thing but when it backfired them, they feel like they were being cheated. Are you all serious?? this things brought me to think when they volunteered themselves to represent the people, what was on their mind actually?? is it people or power?? ok it’s unfair to ask this kind of question because i believe their intention is to make the place they represent a better one. but when you sacrificed your principles in order to obtain the ruling power, i don’t think the people are their priority anymore. if u are against it, then act like u against it and if u support it, then act like you support it.

and what makes it more irritating is the actual victim of this scenario is the people. i watched some videos on you-tube about the protest in Perak and it really saddens me to see 2 women being pushed by the police and some of pakcik tua was arrested by the police. in the pakcik tua case, i saw a man who has given up in what he is believing(aku emo). is this how u treated your people after taking oath that the people are your priority?? i think rather than everyone keep on fighting for power in Perak, it is better if everyone of us work together for the benefits of this country given that the recession is looming over in a very near time. i bet everyone of us aware of this. i read an article on malaysia today which the article was prepared by an asian journalists from an economic-based magazine(i can’t remember the name) about the state of malaysia’s economy. well i admit that i never study economics but common sense is enough to suggest that Malaysia will be hit badly with recession and credit crunch. This is a massive thing because the one that will suffer badly is the people. Even my cousin who works as an engineer in Sony has started looking for other options before retrenchment crisis takes place. so my message to all politicians, forget the Perak crisis because all of you have a bigger responsibility to the people. You took your oath that you will put the people first so i guess it’s an obligation for all of you to deliver. simple as that.

p/s: pagi tadi teman member beli SLR camera. price tag tunjuk 489 pound tp dan2 pagi tu harga naik jadi 519 pound. cakap dah, recession makin dekat. harap2 time aku nk beli nanti harga tak naik lagi. haih result cpt la kluar…

snaptalk..

it’s been a long time since the last time this blog is updated.. been very busy with university life all those assignments and exams (macam org lain xde keje). well this is just a random entry nothing heavy in it. just want to keep the blog alive. right now i am in the middle of semester examination.. so far everything went well but of course, there is always some mistakes and careless. more to stupid careless i guess. abis burn 8 markah huhu.. but overall alhamdulillah i just hope i can pass the requirement mark for the 4th year entry.. life had been not so good with some problems. well actually not problems but a big problem.. i don’t know if i dragged myself into it or i just want to please other people.. i have been thinking a lot actually lately.. i don’t know if i am soo naive or being so good to others but in the same time ignore my own self.. i know one thing.. that is a good thing to do but somehow i am starting to believe that sometimes selfishness is acceptable.. it makes me wonder why i need to shoulder all this misery after being good to some people.. well i guess the answer is sometimes the world could treated u fairly and sometimes not. in my case, maybe i am in the latter situation.  and on top of that, Allah knows everything better than any human kind could thought of. so i have no choice other than deal with it and move on. i still have my friends here who always keep me on my feet. i know sometimes they look up on me and they had always been my inspiration to work harder. to be honest, i think i had live in sadness for one and a half year. i miss the moment when i don’t have to worry of anything other than my study.. well we grown up and the challenges get tougher and tougher and of course the world thing that i mentioned.. maybe i rambled a lot in this entry.. so that’s all that i wanted to say in this entry.. hopefully this blog will be updated more frequent in the future.. hopefully..

p/s: hidup ini bagaikan roda.. ada masa kita di atas ada masa kita di bawah.. tapi masa kita kat atas, pernah tak kita bersyukur??

Kisah di Sebalik Lukisan “The Last Supper”

The Dark Knight. pasti ramai yang sudah menontonnya. aku tidak terkecuali dari golongan2 itu. rasanya dah 4 kali tengok cerita tu. walaupun ianya hanyalah sebuah filem hero hollywood, tapi entah mengapa hati ni masih tak bosan2 tengok cerita ni. agak kecewa bila Harvey Dent berubah dari seorang yg cekal menentang kejahatan dan kegelapan tapi akhirnya tumpas di tangan Joker. hanya dengan sedikit ‘push’ saje, Joker telah berjaya mengubah watak Harvey. walaupun ia hanya lah sebuah cerita rekaan semata2, namun tiba2 kotak fikiran teringat kembali akan cerita di sebalik lukisan ‘The Last Supper’.

The Last Supper ialah sebuah lukisan karya Leonardo da Vinci yg menggambarkan tentang supper terakhir Jesus bersama 12 orang ‘apostle’nya. dalam supper tersebut, jesus mengatakan apabila gelincir matahari salah seorang dari kamu (12 org apostle) akan mengkhianati aku. dan salah seorang nya ialah Judas, si pengkhianat yg dimaksudkan Jesus. umum tahu ketika itu Jesus sedang diburu oleh pihak gereja. dan ya, apa yg dikatakan Jesus benar, Judas mengkhianatinya. perlu diingat cerita di atas ialah menurut kepercayaan kristian.

Lukisan tersebut telah dilukiskan oleh Leonardo da Vinci atas permintaan pihak gereja. maka bermulalah proses lukisan tersebut. namun bila tiba masanya utk melukiskan wajah Jesus, Leonardo da Vinci menghadapi kesukaran melukiskannya. pihak gereja bertanya apakah masalahnya maka Leonardo mengatakan bahawa dia amat sukar utk membayangkan rupa Jesus yg dikatakan bersih dan sgt baik rupanya(muka innocent giler kut). Maka gereja mencari2 org yg bercirikan demikian dan akhirnya terjumpa dgn seorang pekerja kedai roti yg rupa parasnya sgt baik dan bersih. malah peribadinya juga sangat baik. maka selesailah masalah Leonardo dan dia meneruskan lukisannya. namun masalah sama timbul sekali lagi. tapi kali ini masalahnya ialah Leonardo sukar utk membayangkan rupa paras Judas yg dikatakan sgt jahat dan kotor. gereja gagal mencari org yg bercirikan wajah tersebut dan akibatnya, lukisan ini tertangguh selama 3 tahun. tapi pada suatu hari, tiba-tiba seorang lelaki mabuk merempuh ke dalam gereja dan ingin berlindung di dlm gereja tersebut drpd dibelasah oleh sekumpulan manusia. serentak itu, gereja berjaya menemui wajah yg sesuai utk dijadikan Judas dlm lukisan itu. maka siaplah lukisan tersebut. apabila melihat lukisan itu, lelaki mabuk tersebut tergelak dan apabila paderi bertanya mengapa, dia memberitahu 3 tahun sebelum itu, wajahnya pernah digunakan sebagai rujukan utk lukisan tersebut.

maknanya di sini, dalam setiap hati manusia itu ada jahat dan baik. tetapi di atas tangan kita utk menentukan arah mana yg ingin kita tuju. orang yg jahat itu tidak seratus peratus hitam hatinya tetapi dia hanya tersalah membuat pilihan dan begitu juga dgn orang yg baik. everybody has their own dark side. jangan sekali-kali kita menyalahkan seseorang yg melakukan kesalahan kerana belum tentu kita akan kekal baik pada hari2 yg mendatang. hatta orang yg menjaga solatnya belum tentu dia akan meninggalkan dunia ini dgn kalimah syahadah. kita tidak tahu sebab musabab kenapa seseorang itu melakukan kesalahan. boleh jadi keadaan memaksa mereka tapi malangnya tiada siapa yg dapat membimbingnya ketika itu. even islam juga mengajar kita supaya sentiasa bersangka baik terhadap orang lain. realitinya dunia hari ini berada dalam keadaan “aku orang baik, apa aku peduli dengan orang2 buat salah ni”. contoh terbaik, bekas penagih yg ingin bertaubat dipulaukan masyarakat akhirnya kembali ke kancah penagihan dadah. benar, mereka bekas penagih, kotor dan berbahaya kepada masyarakat. tetapi apa hak kita utk menidakkan peluangnya utk insaf?? everyone deserves a second chance rite??

Dunia hari ini penuh dgn dugaan dan pancaroba. zaman sekarang amat berbeza dgn zaman dahulu. kemajuan yg kita kecapi hari ini kadang kala memudahkan kita utk melakukan kejahatan. kita hanya lah manusia yg ada kelemahan masing-masing dan fitrah bagi setiap manusia utk tumpas di tangan syaitan. tapi, kalau kita sentiasa nasihat menasihati, ingat mengingati, percayalah bahawasanya sekurang-kurangnya kita dapat mengurangkan kejahatan yg wujud di atas muka bumi ini.

p/s: why so serious?? The Joker deserves an oscar.

A Year Back…

everyone has a dream. me also. i used to dream of furthering my study abroad, far from my parents, live on my own and see the world that is different from where i came from. yet, the art of a dream is it gives you a wonderful thought and imagination but it can come up in a way that may dissappoint you. it will always be a dream until it is a reality. i have experienced that once and yes, it was very painful. some of my friends, juniors and teachers back at my school asked me , ” aik, kenapa kau tak fly lagi?”.

july last year, i got my results for IB final examination and sadly, my scores were just a point shy from MARA requirement. i was very devastated because it was the 1st time in my life i have tasted a failure in a major examination. so there goes the dream of life in new zealand as a student. frequently i went to the MARA building to see the officer and discuss about the option that i had. they told me not to worry and just write a letter to appeal to them not to discard my plan. and alhamdulillah, they agreed to send me to new zealand but not in the same scheme. well i guess that may be the punishment for not achieving the requirement. so i was happy again. my registration at the university is february the nex year. so i decided to do some part-time job and i managed to secure the job at petrosains, KLCC. well like i said, if the dream was still not a reality, it is still a dream and it can dissappoint you. so it happened. after finishing my 1st day of training program at petrosains, i went back home and my dad informed me, my visa application to new zealand was unsuccessful due to a health problem. i broke down into tears. i never thought that this could happen although i know that i have been diagnosed with hepatitis B carrier. but all the sweet talk from the people working at the agency gave me beliefs that everything will go as i have dreamed of. at this point, i admit that it was the lowest point in my life. there is nothing that i could do because this visa thing is not in my reach to appeal. so i went to MARA again to discuss what is the solution to my problem and they came up with two offers; doing full degree at nottingham semenyih or 1+3 program (1 year at unikl-micet and 3 years at university of sheffield). my mum adviced me to take the 1+3 program because i still can further my study abroad. besides, the MARA officer confirmed me that UK visa is very lenient and there is no medical examination for the application. so i made up my mind and decided to take 1+3 program(cam iklan celcom plak)

so there it goes. i went to the unikl-micet for the registration with a very, very heavy heart. i still could not forget about the new zealand visa. even it took me 5 months to wash away all the pain and sadness. every night before i sleep, i always wondered why i have to walk this path. why everything is so hard for me. chatting with my friends who were already abroad made it more difficult. but, i still believe in that dream and i worked hard everyday to achieve the requirement. i endured a lot of hard time with my imsoniac, relationship and the problematic administration with one thing on my sight; further my study in sheffield, UK. and alhamdulillah after 10 months of hardwork, i achieved the requirement and by the time i write this post, my visa to UK is successful and i am waiting for my departure in 3 days time.

now, i realized why these all happened to me. kita ade perancangan namum percayalah hanya-sanya perancangan Allah adalah lebih baik. maybe Allah wanted to show me how arrogant i was not to remember Him. to be honest, i never pray to Allah so my visa to new zealand will be successful although i am aware that there is possibility it will be unsuccessful. that was totally arrogant rite?? and i feel a lot more ”deserved” to further my study abroad because this time, i achieved the requirement. i also learnt a lot about leadership and i hope it will bring out the very best in me during my time in UK i’Allah. thank you Allah for giving me the second opportunity for me to dream about studying abroad although i am full aware about the riot rumours that may put this country into emergency state and shattered the dream. i don’t know what to expect for my next 3 years in UK but check this out,”expect for the best, prepare for the worst”. well i guess that would sum up what to do for the next 3 years. i’Allah…